“Pray that your loneliness may spur you into finding something to live for, great enough to die for.”
My life is really going through some changes right now
I have a new (full-time) job as the store manager of Rock Revolt in Southlake
I go to class 8-2 every tuesday and thursday
I have plenty of awesome friends
I take kung fu 3 nights a week
In other words…i’m an independent, busy boy
While I am independent and generally self sufficient, I feel as if all of this is not enough. Why? I love my friends and I love my new job, but I’m still lonely. I’ve been single now for well over a year, and I can’t understand it. I can’t be content with being single because I have a lot of intimacy and passion that I need to share with someone. It isn’t as if I can’t live without someone, that would be ludicrous. The fact of the matter is, life without someone is livable, but painful and lonely. It’s not as if i’m insecure or uncomfortable with being single, it’s just something I want. While my life is very busy and involved, I have a desire to share all of this with someone else.
It isn’t as if I haven’t put forth an effort. I have gone on dates and put myself “out there”, but am always discouraged and disappointed. “Keep trying” may be common advice people would give to me, but I’m steadily being worn down to nothing. How many times can you experience disappointment before you begin to lose hope? It’s all very frustrating.
Thank you for attending my official pity party of the day.
Here is the next option I’m taking in to consideration at this point:
